Life is interesting for me since I quit my marriage of 23 years in February. I am truly independent for the first time in my life and I am enjoying it. Can you believe I got to 41 years of age before I ever truly lived on my own?

 

It's true. This time round and this job, and this flat, and this life I now have is the very first time in all my 41 years that I have not shared my home with any other person or animal. It is the first time I have had to fend for and think for myself. It is the first time I have had to budget for myself. It is the first time I have had to do everything for myself without anyone here to help, or to take over and I bloody LOVE it!

 

Independence...freedom...choice is a wonderful thing. If you possess it, hold on to it!

 

This morning I woke up at 3:00. Bang! Sound asleep one second, and wide awake the next! Why? I don't know. I didn't have any ideas for writing. I didn't feel hungry, cold (quite the opposite), uncomfortable, sick or anything else that would explain my being awake so early. I just was.

 

I was too lazy to get up, though, so I lay there and attempted to go back to sleep. We all know what a bad idea that is, now don't we. I dozed on and off, but never got back to sleep properly.

 

So at 5:00 I decided to get up and go online to check my email. Not much there. No new romances on the horizon, no one offering to put a million bucks into my bank account if I would give them my account number. No one at all writing me just to say hello...well, that's boring. I thought, I may as well get ready and head to work early and give everyone a surprise when I walk in the door before 8:00!

 

So I did. On the way from the bus stop to work, I found the only good reason I could find to be up, and going to work that early...a crisp $20.00 bill lying on the footpath. I thanked god/fate/universe or a higher power as you know it for my good fortune and went to work.

 

Maybe this is a sign of the turning of the tide.

 

Perhaps I will buy a lottery ticket this weekend!

 

Meg